FESCO 08 berakhir pada Sabtu mlm dgn jayanya. Most of the visitors and VIPs were satisfied (i got their feedback after the festival) especially UTP VIPs as they themselves witnessed 2 barisan panjang of audiences sampai ke IRC from main entrance. In addition most of the officers who came, congratulate UTP for such a splendid festival and insisted us to make it earlier so that most 20’s IPTAs can join the festival next time. It’s a promise they said. As for me, it was an invaluable experiences that I can’t forget at all. Plus, thanks to my mother and sisters yang datang naik bas to give their support to me. Though they were lost and amik tmpt duduk yang tak sepatutnya. I ran quickly from the main entrance and insisted them to change their seats to the main island..
Though it was a success but I myself wasnt satisfied with UPAG performances though most of audiences replied they loved it and enjoyed the festival. I received hundred of inspiring messages after the festival but It wasnt a remarkable achievements especially for me as the project manager. Behind the scenes, incidents and more incidents happened prior to FESCO 08. I myself have expected this outcomes as basically we just spent about 3 weeks to work on the invitation letter, follow up call, proposal and everything. 2 weeks before the event, we start practicing on our performance and conduct the 2nd meeting with all members. This event was UPAG pilot event and so I myself have expected and prepared for everything. I’m also still new in this field and even everything is conducted in the informal way. In a short period of time we have to plan it thoroughly. I list everything that shud be done during classes and make the list during leisure time.Everyday my rutine is like that. I dont want to miss anything so i decided to resign from TB 08. Dancing and managing in a same time cost you sacrifices and times.
I have warned all the hicom not to take part in UPAG performance as they are important in managing this festival but they insisted to join the show and do it simultaneously. To ensure both of the conduct was a success I myself chose to join the dance so that I can monitor them and work on the latter simultaneously too.It’s a national event. That what I’m worried of. Anyway, it was my mistakes cause I allow this thing to be on voluntary basis from the top management till the committees and even the dancers. I shouldnt have done that. Though the outcomes I receive from UPAGA, Rector, Mr Mat Nor Rosli and and Registrar that they were impressed with the programme flow and the festival itself but for me I failed to do my jobs well. It was my dream that all of us will end up very closed to each other and enjoy the festival. But the truth is, yes i can supervise them but I cant control everyone especially their behavior. Everyone is subjected with their own personal desires, feelings, impressions and decisions. For me every department have done their jobs successfully and I was satisfied. But maybe to some of us, they didnt see the whole pictures and quickly jump into their very own conclusion. I monitor every department performances from the report given my En Ahmad, trusted sources and even from my own observation. If needed I’ll follow up through calls and messages.
To achieve what you wanted, you have to sacrifice sth. Yes, most of us have to sacrifice their lazy Sunday,leisure times with friends, classes and even with your closed friends. I experience it too and to accomplish what I’m responsible for, I do have to put aside everything. Yes it’s true that miscommunication do occur and generally you cant satisfies everyone. Sometimes, a quick decision have to be made. For me, maybe I was to closed to the dancers, my decisions maybe have always been affected as I’m one of them and I have the true pictures of what had happened. But I’ve tried my best to be transparent and cheer up everyone including inculcate team spirit among members. It is my practice to be open minded and accept everything as long as those thing can help build FESCO towards success. Maybe my openness have hurt somebody and I dont have any comment on that. It’s kinda hard to unite everyone but always keep trying.
I spent the whole day yesterday (Sunday 6th April 2008 - which was my mothers birthday) sleeping as the burdens was still on my shoulder. I realize yesterday sth had happened after the festival end and I myself get the true pictures by interviewing some of them affected during the incidents. I asked everything and insisted them to be transparent. Even today I manage to get the true story from others. Everyone was tired and at different places at the same times. But everybody was doing their jobs till sth happened. FnB with their final jobs, dancers with their own packing and rearranging everything to be return back in good condition and the committees that still available with their own tasks. But just terkilan, I dont want to point out to everyone, it just that dont burukkan FESCO08 if you aint satisfied with some of the committees. Remember that we’re a team. We’ve worked together and struggled together. Reminisce back the moments that we have spent for the past 3 weeks. Everyone have done a great jobs and FESCO 08 in the eyes of UTP management and outsiders was a great success. The audiences sampai tak da tempat duduk. Apapun "kerana nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga". Apapun, I feel nothing as I realize no actions can be done to reverse back the moment. Just be fair to other who really work hard for FESCO 08. I’m still the "old" izzi anyway but I’m different when I am working. If anybody was down, you are free to see me and tell everything(like some of UPAG have done today). I am here for you.
As a conclusion, no dendam or amarah in me as I have really prepared for this. Tak kisah pun. It’s for real. Anyway, after the festival, i went back to my room around 5am after ensuring everything is clear in CH and tlg2 angkat brg2 FESCO 08 and props ke Blok B. Everything settled with the commitment of each committee of UPAG-FESCO 08. Just that I terkilan dpt jumpa mak sekejap je mlm tuh after the festival end I really plan to send her kat Medan Gopeng on Sunday morning. Plan nak bgn pukul 630pg and borrow Keyrol’s car. Then beli McD bg suprise and sambut hari jadi dia pagi tuh. But I end up bgn pukul 12tghhari. Maybe too tired as I didnt sleep the day before.
Pic for this week
5th April 2008. 3am. Few logistic members yang volunteer to help me finishing the programme books. Printer wat hal. Thus I came there to support them. The only thing I can do at time dekat2 event2 ni.
5th April 2008, 5am. Beberapa org terpaksa mengalah. Ft Annas, Keane and Eppy Ranae. Baju hitam - eisak. Apapun semuanya mesti settle walaupun printer lembab.
5th April 2008. 6am.En Ahmad yang tido dlm bilik meeting. 1st time tido kat office. Candid.! Mesti kuat and semangat.
5th April 2008. 630am. Burn yang akhirnya mengalah kepada kehendak diri. Tido di satu penjuru pejabat
5th April 2008.Later at 730am I send Burn balik bilik cause dia ada event ExploreRC pulak and aku terus pulangkan kereta Hakeem. 750am, I prepared to go to Chancellor Hall for UPAG’s training as usual. Some of them finally have to go to Blok B to help budak dlm gmbr yang baru bgn settlekan kerja2 FESCO 08. As for me, I must stay at CH to monitor others. Chayok incik izzi!
FESCO 08 marked its end!! Photo Group session!
A short time spent with my mother and sisters. At the back, my kakak tiri with her husband dgn anak kecil kat riba tgh tidur…Then after send them sampai kat pintu entrance Chancellor Complex, I worked back till the end.
"The way a team plays as a whole determines its
success. You may have the greatest bunch of individual stars in the
world, but if they don’t play together, the club wont be worth a dime"
As for me, I dont afraid anymore to express myself, learn how to be a good listener, develop my "anger" so that I’m no afraid of anyone even "lion" and I just need to be myself to run anythings. Be transparent though it might hurts and to success sometimes you dont have to really consider other ppl feeling because the truth still remains that you can’t satisfies everyone even though your friends. As the project manager, everything is under your control. Walaupun sume org ckp, izzi go on…ko project manager! Jgn takut..tp sometimes..I can’t do that..
